Please meet our Guest Blogger, Megan Johnson Huber. It really takes courage to be vulnerable and fully responsible for our lives! And … when we decide to be honest and authentic with who we are (when the shades are closed and no one is looking), there is a child like freedom to it! Perhaps you have experienced this yourself. I was touched by Megan’s Story and her willingness to share it with you. I trust you will find value for yourself. Real power is fueled by courage, building our confidence and thereby allowing us the ability to serve others.
Leslie Flowers, Founder
The Confidence to Be You
She was 24 years old, 5 feet 8 inches tall and weighed all of 100 measly pounds. Half a PB&J on wheat, a few pieces of pineapple and a bowl of cheerios were her “meals”. On occasion, she’d secretly binge and purge, feeling so proud of herself that no one even noticed. Her thoughts were consumed with calorie counting, food, weight, exercise, control, judgment and secrecy. Thinning hair, receding gums, no energy, blurry vision, trembling hands. No one noticed. No one asked.
On January 1, 2005 she walked into a Gold’s Gym in Raleigh, NC and asked for the best trainer on staff. Her soul and bony body were battered, beaten, lifeless and screaming at the top of their lungs for help. Tears flowed. Head in hands. Sigh of relief. A new beginning.
I haven’t shared this story very often until recently as I now know its stories like mine that represent millions of women all over the world. Perhaps you’ve not suffered from an eating disorder, but if I know the Universe, a part of me is inside of you and you’ll take another step toward tapping into your inner strength as a result of my story. For many years, I struggled with body image issues and believed that in order to feel and be loved and accepted by anyone, I had to be thin and look like the young girls on every magazine cover I was reading at the time. This was an illusion that I created which eventually became my reality. Because of this belief system and the fact that my thoughts supported those beliefs, I got exactly what I thought about all the time.
For years I did what I thought I was supposed to do and acted how I thought I was supposed to act based on the world, people and society around me. My outer style reflected someone who just blended into the crowd. The day I walked into that gym and asked for a trainer, my 24 year old story ended and I began a new destiny.
It was time for the 12 year old girl inside of me to stop running the show and for me to develop my own individuality starting from the inside, my core being, my higher self. When I began moving forward from this place, my desires became clearer and my true self began to show up in all areas of my life, which has made all the desires of my life thus far much easier to manifest on the outside.
The Universe wants to work with you! The more life experience I have the more I’m able to relinquish control and jump into the truth of God’s love for me. We are created with a purpose that does not bless or benefit anyone when we go for what isn’t our authentic self. “Just be yourself” sounds so obvious, but it takes a fierce amount of courage to drop the conditioning of who we’re “supposed” to be, what we’re “supposed” to wear, how we’re “supposed” to make the money or who we’re “supposed” to marry. To fully embrace and become the most magical and natural state of you takes inner strength and feminine courage.
When I fully tapped into my inner strength and feminine courage I began to express my style, personality and passions on the outside, matching how I truly felt on the inside. I began making choices based on what I “wanted” rather than on what I thought I “should” do or who I “should” be. Life truly is easier this way!
Two and a half years ago, Megan went from working 70+ hours a week as an educator in both a face to face and virtual high school to breastfeeding, changing diapers and watching daytime tv. This lifestyle change sent her down a path of shock, postpartum depression and an identity crisis. But, what falls down must eventually make its way back up. Megan used this seemingly blessed time in her life to reinvent herself, to identify her purpose and be the change that her heart truly desired to see in the world. She set out on a journey filled with just as much trial and error as success which has landed her here in front of you today. Megan’s own personal and professional transformation to live a bigger, better, bolder life is the fire that drives her to inspire and empower other women to live a life business that is inspirational and important to them – an authentic life that is lived ALL IN.
If you enjoyed Megan’s Story, you can FIND MEGAN at the links below.